So, when we talked to Stereo Hogzz last week they made an interesting comment.  They said that it wasn’t so much about winning the show as it was getting that national exposure.  So, I’m wondering for you, I mean, in your heart of hearts did you really think that you could win this show or were you just looking to have a bigger audience to showcase your talents to?

Well, you know, I love Nicole very much, but the game was going really, really hard core.  I feel like Simon Cowell definitely threw me under the bus as a judge.  I definitely have an admiration for him as the creator of the show and the executive of the show.  That’s doesn’t go into the game.
You know, as far as being in the game of the competition he only stood up, he gave standing ovations to his contestants.  He made it very clear that he wants to take the crown for one of his girls.  He was not supporting any other contestant that was not his contestant and for that reason I would have loved to have been in his category because he has a very strong voice and America listens to him and they appreciate what he has to say and he’s very influential.
Now, as the creator of the show that was the moment that I had to take last night to thank him as I did, because he gave me the opportunity to be there and for that I have so much admiration and respect for him.

The next question is from the line of Karla Borders with Parade Magazine. Please go ahead with your question.

I would hope not because Simon did come to my defense to make it clear that some people did have a professional career.  Obviously, my career wasn’t as “successful” as people were saying because no one knew who I was until I cam on the X Factor stage.
So, it wasn’t like I was Janet Jackson and I came to do the X Factor, you know?  So, I think that that was kind of silly that that was brought up.  I think that people were looking for some sort of news to dish on me and those people got their wish.  They wanted to see me off the show and that’s what they got.

Thank you, Stacy.

That would have been really great, huh?

Well, unfortunately when you’re in there it’s very difficult to hear the music if the monitors are not loud enough and there are things called in ear monitors and I didn’t have any in and the first part of the song I couldn’t hear because the audience was screaming really loud, which I love them screaming for me.  That’s amazing.  But, unfortunately, I couldn’t hear the music so I think I was off at the first part of the song.
I finally found my way in, but I think that’s what Paula was making a reference to and by that time it was a little bit too late and I think at this point in the game, for the person that’s making the $5 million they really want you to overcome those kind of obstacles and do well.
So, that’s why I said last night I’ll take responsibility for my performance.  I didn’t think that it was bad enough to get me kicked off, but obviously it did.

I was in a pure state of shock.  I didn’t expect to go home.  I had said to Nicole and Josh that I thought I’d be in the bottom two.  Once we got to that stage for some reason my gut was telling me that.  And I didn’t expect to go home and when I saw there was Astro standing next to me I was hoping that because he’s not a singer that they would have taken a position, you know, we’re going to let a singer go through.
And then when he had sort of a little attitude about it, he was kind of throwing it away I was hoping that they would take advantage of that, but they didn’t.  I think Simon, he loves a little rebel and at the end of the day Astro is a very talented kid.  You know, it’s hard when you’re standing there and you’re being judged and America is watching and the world is watching, it’s very stressful and I think he responded like a child would respond.
He’s 14 years old and it’s very difficult.  I mean, I’m 42 and the night before and I stood there and my face wasn’t exactly as what it should be as far as smiling and being as light as I should have been.  Sometimes we lose it.  As artists, it’s very personal and it’s hard.  So, I think that’s what happened to him.
And my heart goes out to him.  I think he’s super talented.  I watched him backstage writing lyrics and making beats and for 14 years old, he’s an extraordinary person and an extraordinary talent and I think he’s going to have a bright future ahead of him.

Well, I think when you’re standing in that moment you feel very invalidated as an artist.  You feel like people gave up on you.  You don’t really know why you’re standing there in that moment.  You feel like maybe people don’t like you anymore and we’ve got to look at who he is.
He’s a hip-hop artist first.  There’s a little Kanye West in him.  Hip-hop artists they have their integrity about who they are, they stand by what they do.  They don’t get caught up too much in what other people think.  They’re going to do what they want to do.  And I think that when he’s standing there he’s like wow, what’s going on.   And he kind of felt rejected.
And so he reacted in that way and so we’ve got to look at it like it is.  Like I said, he’s young.  I’m old enough to be his mom.  And I’ve got to tell you something, on the other side of that at 14 years old for him to have the confidence that he has, he’s standing on the same stage as a 42-year-old woman who didn’t have that confidence at 14 years old, so in that way I respect him and I admire him for taking a stand for himself at such a young age.  He has that New Yorker in him that’s fighting for it and I can’t blame him for it.  I’m really very proud of Astro.  I think he’s really talented.

Okay.  And you said you weren’t always happy with your song choices.  Did you always decide what to sing or how much of a role did Nicole actually play in that?  And, looking back, what changes would you have made?  Would you have sung different songs or would you have liked to have tried different artists or genres?

Well, you know, the thing that I regret, you know, Simon Cowell he picked up the announcement for that week and you know, that was a really good song choice.  I really respect Simon as a recording executive.  I think that unfortunately had his ego not come into play and had he not beat up Nicole so much about the fact that he picked my song, I would have loved for us to continue to work in a team sort of effort with Simon because I think he did have the right direction for me and up until that point, up until he stopped helping is when everything went crazy.
And I think we needed his viewpoint.  I respect him for what he does for people over 40.  Look at what he did for Susan Boyle.  You know, I respect Nicole and I love her, but I think as a creative executive, that’s the lane that he’s in.  So, that’s when I think I crashed and burned, those last two weeks when I did have his help and, unfortunately I wasn’t in his category.  So, unfortunately, I had to bite the bullet.

The next question is from the line of Reg Seaton with Deadbolt.com.  Please go ahead.

I think as an artist you always feel like you do.  The X Factor is such an amazing machine, it’s such an amazing vehicle and me not being on it weekly anymore I’m hoping that the attention span of America, they remember me and even though I’m not in front of them every week that they will buy my music whenever we do it and hoping that I have that opportunity to record.
So, I don’t know.  I’m just hoping for that.

The next question is from the line of Sheri Block with CTV.CA.

I’m good, thanks.  Sorry to see you go.  You know, you talked a little bit about Astro leaving.  Do you think that it was unfair that they saved him considering that he was acting like a child and kind of disrespectful?

I know why they saved him.  He’s a talented kid and he does have the X factor and I think that I have the X factor and I think it was a very complicated decision for them to make.  Simon Cowell did say that it was very complicated and he tweeted later on that he nearly changed his mind.
I think the two of us being on the bottom two was very unfortunate and I don’t know if anybody expected it.  I don’t know.  I don’t look at it that way.  I think that he had an initial response that was honest.  He felt rejected.  He felt as an artist that people weren’t supporting him anymore and that’s a really hard feeling to deal with.
I mean dealing with it at 42 is always hard so him dealing with it at 14, I can’t even imagine what that’s like.  As a mom, I looked at him and I said, wow, I get it.  If that was my son, I would just want to hug him and embrace him and let him know that we love him and we respect his craft and that’s the way things go.  It’s a competition.

Well, you know, I was in utter shock, but I was not numb to the fact that Simon Cowell is a brilliant executive and he gave someone like me a 42-year-old who for years had been told that I would not make it, I could not make it.  I had a Broadway voice.  I was never going to make a record.
He took me and took a chance and I had to take a moment that I thought I was probably going to have that only moment in front of the world and thank him graciously.  It wasn’t rehearsed, obviously, I didn’t know I was going to be there.  I just spoke from my heart.

Stacy, how are you?  There’s, obviously, been a lot of talk and there was on the show Wednesday about the rock theme.  It seemed like none of the judges were really happy with how that was being materialized.  I know a lot of critics and fans complained that there was really at best maybe one or two rock performances on the whole show.
From the standpoint of a contestant who is not a rock artist, I’m wondering, first of all, whether you felt the theme was fair and then if you kind of agree that maybe the contestants should have been more rock and roll with the kind of performances they gave?

Well, this is what I’ll have to say about that and I’ll stand by it and I said it that night.  The week before I had done “Queen of the Night” and I had gotten slammed really hard from the judges and from my supporters and I felt like if I was going to be given a rock song, I wanted to then take that song and try to make it my own that best that I could and go back to what I did, you know what I mean, like before that, before the “Queen of the Night,” and so it was just really a tough place for me to be because I could have come back and done another kind of “Queen of the Night” song and then I would have gotten in trouble again.
So, I don’t know.  The song choices that I had were not that great.  I’m not a rock singer.  I was hoping that rock night meant take a rock song and do what you do, not necessarily do a rock version of it, but take a rock song and do what you do because I think as artists we should stay true to our selves.  I’m a gospel, soul, church; I’m not a rock singer. 
So, I was hoping I could take a rock song and make it a soul song because I believe that rock is raw and you sing from your soul anyway.  So, I wasn’t going to get out there and like scream and do some other thing.  I would have gotten in trouble for that, too.  So, you find yourself between a rock and a hard place on that kind of thing.

I think that when I did “Natural Woman” I sang from my heart, I emoted from my emotions, I was very genuine.  I think when I did “Up the Mountain,” you got that.  I think at the end of the day fans are telling me they don’t want to see my crying, but they want me to sing the songs that make them cry.  And that’s the kind of music I want to do.
I want to do soul stirring music.  I want to do soul music.  And that’s the thing that I’m going to do.  I’ve got to stick close to that and if that means Aretha Franklin or Whitney Houston or Jennifer Hudson, then that’s what it is.  It’s not far off from that.

Okay, thanks a lot.

I think the most important thing is just keeping my integrity.  I learned a lot about my voice.  When I was at boot camp, I was holding long notes and sort of not really getting what it meant to sing a song and deliver it and be in the moment.  For so many years I’ve sung to try to prove myself and prove that I’m a great singer and I think this experience just really showed me how to take a song and make it my own and make it sort of a ministry to people and stir people’s souls, in the words of L.A. Reid.
And that’s the biggest thing that I got from it.  Like I said, I spent so many years trying to prove myself and that’s what I had done at boot camp and Simon Cowell taught me how to not do that anymore, just to stand there and sing the song and take my time and pull people in as best I can in my music.

And we have time for one more question.  The final question comes from the line of Jennifer Still with Digital Spy.  Please go ahead with your question.

Hi, Stacy.  This is Jennifer.  How are you?

Well, first of all, let me just acknowledge Digital Spy.  You guys always, you make me look so good, you’re such a supportive Website and media outlet and I just want to take a moment to thank you for being so kind to me.

Oh, you’re more than welcome.  We absolutely love you at Digital Spy.

Oh, well, you’re absolutely more than welcome.  We’re sorry to see you go from the competition that’s for sure.  My quick question is I read something a bit earlier this week.  It was a quote that you had given to MTV, actually, about how you felt that you had been sort of unfairly judged by Simon and you felt like you got beat up by him every week.
And, obviously, when you went out you gave him a massive thank you for giving you this opportunity.  Was the criticism from him sort of the hardest to bear of all of the judges because he is sort of the head of that or what was sort of the significance of the feedback from him in comparison to the other judges, even Nicole?

Well, the thing about it is that I have a lot of love and admiration for Simon Cowell for giving me the opportunity. When I thanked him I thanked him as a person that’s not in the competition any more, that was eliminated, that is the creator of the show.
Now, when I was in the game and we were competing against each other he definitely beat me up and I felt like he had beaten me up because I wasn’t in his category and I would like to believe that I was a strong contender against his category and he wanted to win and he plays hard ball.
If you think about it I sang a song that he said was soft rock and yet his contestant came right after me and she sang a “soft rock” song and he stood up for her.  He was definitely – and I see him doing this to everybody that’s not in his category – he keeps you down to the ground and he’s making it known that he wants to take it all the way.
Now, on the other side of that, you’ve got to separate it.  He’s the creator of the show.  He’s an amazing, brilliant executive and he created this outlet for me and I would have been remiss had I not taken a moment to thank him for it because there’s no other show, no other outlet, no other anything in this world that would give someone my age and with all the things that go along with me, the opportunity to stand in front of the world every week and sing and for that I had to thank him and after the show I got a chance to embrace him and show him my affinity for it.  I love him for that.
But I took a beating from him.  I think he threw me under the bus a couple of times and I don’t know as an artist if I deserved it or he was playing a game.  That’s not something I’ll every really know.

Mr. Fabiani, please continue.  There are no questions.

Great.  Thanks.  I just wanted to give a quick thank you to Stacy and thanks to everyone for participating in the call today.  And the last reminder that the X Factor will air next week on Tuesday and Wednesday on Fox.  Thank you.

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